Today was definitely a roller coaster ride, but it ended on a high note, so I can't complain.
I ended up staying at the music building from about 7:30AM to 1PM, and by that time I knew I a) needed a nap, and b) didn't have time to take one. I had a couple hours to myself back at my dorm, then I had to head back for my 3:00 class (composition, so at least the trip was well worth it). By the time I settled back into my room to do homework, I was pretty mentally exhausted, and I ended up not getting to eat dinner with my friends, which was a bummer....
And then, somehow, my day got a million times better.
I've been trying not to scare my new friends too much - keeping all my musicality in check is a little difficult at times, but I try to act (mostly) normal around my non-music friends. Lately, though, I've been opening up, and tonight a really good friend of mine heard my full band piece for the first time. [Thankfully I wasn't there; otherwise I'd probably be commenting and nitpicking through the entire thing.] After six weeks' worth of an internal struggle revolving around my friends not entirely understanding who I am in a musical sense, it was amazing to get positive feedback (that's composer-speak for he liked it).
That's one of the best things about my friends here - they're really supportive, and they don't tell me I can't do something. I've always been a little nervous about going all-out band geek on people I met outside the music world, especially when a lot of the population doesn't realize what hard work composition can entail, but when I take the risk, the complete and utter acceptance only reminds me that I have the best friends in the world. I'm honestly not sure if that friend will ever read this, but even if he doesn't, hopefully he realizes how much his approval means to me both as a composer and as a girl who's done hiding. :)
Love you all,
Megan
PS: The song I picked for this entry probably didn't make much sense at first, but now that you've read the whole thing, just think about the lyrics of the chorus: "I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly, I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky. Gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change... and breakaway."
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