Uptown Girl: Back to the Daily Grind

Once again, friends, it's been way too long.

There was drama. There were four concerts in five days. There was the premier of my first trombone duet and the composing of a second one. There were midterms and battles to be fought and existential crises and tears and hugs and who knows what else. A lot can change in a month. Every once in awhile, that fact hits me. Hard.

But we're not going to talk about that - the point is, things are different.

I'm spending more time with my brass buddies and my fellow composers. Crazy as I am, these people both know how to deal with me and actually seem to enjoy doing so. They're my first line of defense and the root of my happiness in college. Without them, life would be so much more complicated, and so much harder to deal with. They love me when I'm a good composer, and maybe more importantly, they love me when I screw up, too.

Life's still moving by pretty quickly, but it's not as bad as it was before Spring Break. The weather here is approaching 90 degrees on a daily basis now, and while I'm bummed my standby of a sweatshirt and jeans won't really work anymore, it's nice to break out the sundresses. I'm taking more time out of my day to compose, and as a result I almost always have multiple Sibelius files open on my computer. I sometimes feel like I'm taking on too many extra projects, but hey, if it keeps my mind off other problems, that's not the worst thing in the world. Plus, it's still a joy to realize that I'm creating music (and I hope it always will be).

I've had quite a few moments of weakness in the past month. Things get rough sometimes, and my knee-jerk reaction is to hide out until I can find the one or two people who help me get my strength back. As a result, there's been quite a bit of radio silence from me, and I apologize. Academically/musically, things continue to be positive (and getting better), but in terms of being really socially comfortable and confident in my self-worth, I'm still climbing the mountain. Don't get me wrong; I'm making progress, and that's great. But like most teenage girls, I've got a long way to go.

I've left this post purposely vague. A month is a lot to cover, and if I went into detail you wouldn't reach the end without falling asleep. Also, I don't need everyone getting into the guts of my personal life. This is everything I'd tell you if you walked up to me and asked how I was doing, which seems fair to share with my e-following. :) In any event, I hope everyone's healthy and positive, and I'm excited about where my journey's going next - particularly musically!

Love you all,
Megan

PS: The song doesn't have anything to do with the post. It's just been stuck in my head all week.